My name is Rose Fjeld and I received your card and giraffe on February 12th, 2015 at West Allis before I was going to give birth to my first born son. I was never sure if my husband and I were going to be parents and then to our surprise we found out we were pregnant in the summer of 2014. Throughout my pregnancy I prayed that I would be a good mom. I was scared of the changes and challenges that were ahead of me to be a good mom. How would I keep it all straight? How do I balance it all. How do I raise a child in a broken world?
I am also a nurse so I had many fears about my health and the baby’s health. I found myself praying for peace and a safe delivery that afternoon when [the nurse] walked into my room with your gift. I was at first confused who would drop off a gift because I didn’t tell anyone but my husband that we were in the hospital but then opened your card. Words really cannot express the emotions I felt when I read your words about your little Paxton. My heart aches for you as a mother to lose a child and I now look at my son and cry for you. But I want you to know that your little Paxton and your gift you gave me that afternoon gave me peace I had just been praying for. When I received your gift I realized that the Lord was telling me that no matter what happens everything will be okay and will be in His plan even if it isn’t my plan. In life we really cannot plan for everything and all of my fears were just about that. I needed to be able to relinquish control and let Jesus take the wheel. My heart and soul were at peace and I finally felt ready to be a mom after knowing Paxton would be there and is an angel watching over our son.Evan James was born at 4:24pm on February 12th. His room is decorated in giraffes and monkeys already so Paxton’s giraffe fit right it. It is as if they are “soul” friends. I look forward to telling Evan about sweet Paxton when he is older. We will celebrate Paxton’s life and remember him every February 12th along with Evan’s birthday.Thank you for being so brave to share your story of your son with me and my husband. We are so touched. Paxton is an angel and God has really big plans for him. He is still present today through you and moving mountains
This letter and heartfelt story was shared with me at a recent newborn session from the mother who had just given birth to a healthy and beautiful baby boy just days before. I was looking forward to this session for quite some time. This super-on-top-of-things mom contacted me months before her baby was due. She had mentioned that her husband is a Police Officer in Milwaukee and she would love to get some photos with him in uniform. EXCITED! I love working with my clients to make their dream session come true. It’s what pushes me creatively and makes my heart happy!
When I arrived for the session the new parents almost made me cry by telling me the story about this giraffe. Rose told me when she was in the delivery room almost ready to push one of the nurses handed this giraffe to them and said it was a gift from an anonymous woman to honor the birthday of her son, Paxton Andrews, who lost his battle to cancer when he was almost five months old.
Paxton’s mother has established the Paxton Andrews Foundation in honor of her angel. Excuse me while I go hug my babies now and appreciate them for what they are…gifts from God!